And, it’s called a Bible. It’s a marriage between text and images. I found a couple of mistakes. I found a way to eliminate the Love Songs page since the last page is the back of a CD case with the tracklist, so I just put the tracklist. But I left the page in my draft. I went for a walk to the sea, and so many people were lounging on a black beach. I thought, I don’t even know when I ever did that, let alone, the last time. I’m very pale, so I get embarrassed from time to time.
I just congratulated myself every step of the way…thinking about Ryan Gosling sitting in hours of traffic…and going, I’m going to keep reaching beyond the freeway and the parking ticket and just be grateful that I got a shot. I had done some meditations where I was a kid in some driveway I didn’t have on some street and I shot hoops. I never played basketball. Never cared to. But I just kept making shots. I wanted to make the shot.
I thought, oh, I didn’t put this song in… um…maybe I need to put in a couple of sentences…I know he’ll give me his feedback on images…and I’m just going to trust that I’m going to make the shot. I really studied the Stranger Things bible to arrive at — oh, a CD case. Because a fairytale book doesn’t mean anything, depending? But a CD makes sense. Time appropriate. A love song. Under the wheels of Little Miss Sunshine. Remember CDS? Some people don’t.
So that was two months and two full weeks. I took a week off. I had— hilariously — the time of my life.
I started with white pages…that turned to sky blue…with rainbows… and then, I ended up with music. Music holds together the whole thing, so now, he can get the architecture of it, and think about some of these images, since I didn’t know if I should put sports references for the sake of movement…just to show the range of intensity — the driving toward the goal. The chance for these sports stars to F people up, lol. Just because I had a good laugh with these people operating with some dead body in Little Miss Sunshine — easy. Trained to operate as a whole unit in which everyone pulls their own weight.
I’ll answer some of my own questions about the Bible I’m sure… but I feel extremely proud of myself today because it’s an idea. I saw other movies. I can place it. I can realize it. I can go in a direction. I know I’ll sell my book— time is actually on my side. It’s just the beginning.
And Celine Dion in the movie Bible singing “you’re here…there’s nothing to fear…” you know that part in her music video “My Heart Will Go On,” after everything you have read about what just happened. That’s basically it — in a nutshell. And she sparkles in this context. You get the humor, no? It was a serious situation. And yes, my heart will go on. Just laughing. These kids getting so annoyed that they’re listening to this song. “AND I KNOW…” that my heart will go on. She’s 100% — in it. When it comes to romantic love, it’s true, that’s a true dimension of experience. Heartbreak. The pain of that. In this case, she lost someone she loved. But in this case, whoosh. And yet, there’s wisdom to graze… all the same.
I look forward to getting his feedback. I think I provided enough images for an edit, even. Get this image or that image, if he thinks. The story is solid. I think the structure is too. It’s a very touching story. The love songs just take it to another level. And I didn’t even need to make it up. “Through the years, when everything went wrong, together we were strong…” the family videos played to me…with this song, looking around. I know that element to it will resonate — My Heart will Go On isn’t in it, but I remember this moment, so I’m sure others do.
An amazing couple of cultures in the room… wow, in terms of what one can get through… in thinking about history… I thought that was a strong message that I don’t even need to reiterate. I’m thrilled. I keep on imagining the “we did it.” Next step. Good job. Now go do it. Good job. Now go do it. This is the meditation. Gangs of NY tonight, lol, and good job, now go do it. That’s it. I know this will happen. That’s my sole focus.
Here’s the thing about Céline, she was 12…15… she was 29 years old when she recorded My Heart Will Go On. I just watched an interview with her, hardly spoke English lol, something, didn’t check, and she basically said she wants to be an international star and she wanted to sing her whole life. That was it. It was a clear objective. She wasn’t getting caught up in “doing it for the fame” or not, clear objective. She knew she was good, that was it. And in this house, she is a very very important person. I think she might have been one of my first albums because of it since some of these power ballads blew me away all things considered…the passion, the emotion, “the truth…”
“The Power of Love” actually hit the airwaves when this whole spectacle came tumbling down…
And a good song is a good song. That’s a real power ballad right there. But by nature of the THRUST, by nature of the PASSION, the DRIVE, “whatever we deny or embrace…for worse or for better, we belong, we belong, we belong together…” I’m the one listening to these songs.
I’m not quite sure about the end, but it’s not the last note, I think, not sure yet about the make-up of songs… since something will probably warp, I don’t know, so I’m not married to an exact playlist or way this is going to go down, only that, the love song is real and true… I have to reach back and remember what she played…. Through the Years…. being the “whoa…” and it’s also true, just hilarious, the small dramas as well as large. “The memories.” I can’t wait to get to the scenes, to show a super strong family that — alright, into the VAN. One more goddamn baby. They merit the emotional impact of some of these songs. You can see a father totally “incensed” — not even being able to grasp who’s who himself.
Just coming back from this court date, whatever, trying to get off the freeway — PICO. Penguins. Picturing me getting angry super young, finding redemption on a tennis court. Good anger. No one cares if you flip out. Get it baby. I thought that could be pretty funny. That tennis embraces me. Some funny face, tiny legs, determination. Smacking balls. And my racket chuck across the court at 4…just impressive. I really did that. And it was impressive. That’s it. That was my instructor’s bottom line. Watching me flip out over him singing “Maria” from Westside Story to me…hustling across the court. Nothing but potential here. It was 100% — good stuff.
Nicole and I bouncing, running in sync…doubles.
That’s basically it for today. My dreams, musings.
This tennis coach really loving my nasty attitude — the chip on my shoulder even. Very good.
There’s a great universe. Now that it’s a bit more designed to help a kid through, ups and downs and Mr. Toad’s Wild Adventure, I couldn’t even do this, this Brazilian mother remembers. Both of us. That was Dr. J. The two of us holding our heads at Disneyland. Too real. Not in it, but it’s funny.