The arc of that is subject to change since I haven’t written the book yet, but there you go. I published it on Medium. I suppose I’ll share it on my social channel. I still don’t totally get the text size, but people always tell me it’s too small, so mine might be too big. Anyway, I’m proud of this one, I have more excerpts, so that’s my plan — diffuse. I should have an operation going pretty soon, just trying to figure out the mechanics of this. I don’t understand social media in the slightest. Do I have two accounts, since I have them? Who cares? I’m not sure what to do. Write a newsletter…and say…here it is…create its own section in Substack so I can introduce this…talk about my ideas…where they come from? That’s basically where I’m at. Just trying to get better at putting myself out there…on the channels that exist…hopefully, it will be a very good year for me, one of those that I’ll look back on…um, remember? When everything changed? So ready. Please… but at least, I have material I can start to show…it’s…how this Maria figures it out…who he is, really, and what’s possible. Because what hasn’t he seen? It’s just not quite the moment, I think, to go inward, since it’s all in the moment, and she felt time bend, you know, what can I say? I did. I hope it’s good. I hope so. I have the next scene already…so I’ll be publishing all that now…
Probable futures. You know? I never thought about this experience I had around time twice…and the thing is, the Oldest Storyteller will look smashing, really, as I, at nine, tell him mystery is real, Death. I didn’t need to know…what was going on…I got a message. Just understanding that I had a neurological event, the lifting like a spell, it’s just, I wasn’t in any pain. I did have sensation, but I haven’t totally cracked open this moment yet in the story, and I, still — understandable, no? — grain away like…I saw balls of fire, I did, through the fabric of what is, and I received this as “probable futures.” That’s what it was, it was clear to me. And yes, I could see that some futures were more probable than others…truly speaking, graining away from “Tai” in Clueless, like, are people going to ask me about…time? Now, I’m okay. But realizing I went through this really…threw me. I did, in fact, experience that, characters from my life…coming into the room, so to speak, beginning to feel sensations I didn’t understand. Violent, in the beginning, but I talked myself through it, okay, look, there was a beginning, end, spell, I remember those words, it felt like a spell had lifted…and why…was that word suddenly…appropriate? That was the word. A spell.
The winds…was another section of it…a sensation like winds.
The Big Yellow Taxi was the first time though I didn’t realize that these two events were related yet. I had both of them, but I didn’t know they connected, and I FELT older that time than I did the second almost as if I couldn’t place myself…but I doubt that’s that unusual. It was confusing though I didn’t seem to think so at the time…that one took some time to work out…it was so significant as one can imagine…It’s just the first crack into it, as I didn’t even go through the full arch of the event, so, in the end, once I’m done, I might not fully go into it since we’ll return to this moment, the neurologist comment probably comes later…but it’s just to present a complete idea at first glance, and who knows, maybe that will stay, I’m not on this one, yet, as I’m on Christmas in Naples is Sport, but if someone were to tell me to be, I would, obviously. I’m happy to share it in the meantime…
I’ll write a newsletter in a couple of days…I know some people write every day, which is a bit annoying, isn’t it? But then, I have like no readers right now. So, maybe every couple of days, I don’t know, I’ll figure that out. I should probably change my newsletter name to my name…or something…else. I feel happier and happier and more excited for the success to come…all that, as my focus is very direct this year…I mean, we’ll see, but this was an idea that I wanted to get to and luckily, there were some contests that I submitted myself for that propelled me a little forward with the idea…big thanks to Seth, the personality essence, like I care if this personality essence is or is not, it’s great stuff, I was casting him immediately. I just can’t disrespect an idea’s existence, I cannot. Not when it feels real.
I’m finished….